lonely and angry

[Scott W]

In article <46da68b9$0$27236$742ec2ed@news.sonic.net>, sisdahl@sonic.net
says...
> I'm taking another stab at trying to figure out my life without
> alcohol. It was always something that could ease the pain from
> depression but instead it just makes life ten times worse. My roommate
> drinks and that for a long time has been the basis of our relationship.
> Right now I just feel like the walking dead always regretting the
> choices and situations I end up. It's only my fourth day sober and can't
> stop thinking about the future because the present is generally on edge
> and painful.
>
I bet that you hate your day job.
--
"USA is the most pathetic country in the world!"
-- Gordon Ramsay (aka Iron Chef)

[sotie]

I'm taking another stab at trying to figure out my life without
alcohol. It was always something that could ease the pain from
depression but instead it just makes life ten times worse. My roommate
drinks and that for a long time has been the basis of our relationship.
Right now I just feel like the walking dead always regretting the
choices and situations I end up. It's only my fourth day sober and can't
stop thinking about the future because the present is generally on edge
and painful.

[GILL]

sotie wrote:
> I'm taking another stab at trying to figure out my life without
> alcohol. It was always something that could ease the pain from
> depression but instead it just makes life ten times worse. My roommate
> drinks and that for a long time has been the basis of our relationship.
> Right now I just feel like the walking dead always regretting the
> choices and situations I end up. It's only my fourth day sober and can't
> stop thinking about the future because the present is generally on edge
> and painful.
It would probably be good for you to be around other people with the
same goal to be sober.

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[Joe Jared]

On Sun, 02 Sep 2007 00:39:32 -0700, sotie wrote:

> choices and situations I end up. It's only my fourth day sober and can't
> stop thinking about the future because the present is generally on edge
> and painful.

It's nothing to worry about. You're getting your sober legs back.
Alcohol isn't really a pain reliever though, it's a pain enhancer. If you
stay sober long enough, you'll understand. BTW, I hope you're also going
to meetings. Newcomers in your condition do a lot to help other people
stay sober for those who are not too arrogant to see it.

--
http://www.oretek.com

[Gary]

I've said this in a lot of postings and discussions about my stopping the
incredibly and sad behavior I exhibited most of my adult life -- I drank and
did drugs to stop feeling stuff, not to feel 'better'. I guess feeling
better meant not feeling at all -- at least for me.

Whether it's one day or ten thousand, the emotions you're feeling are inside
you -- they have nothing to do at all, in any way, with chemicals, drugs,
liquor, nothing. It's your feelings, emotions, and what some call the
"organs of perception" (your eyes, heart, stomach, fingers, sexual organs,
excreting organs, etc) that's making you feel bad.

Meditation -- the silencing of our thoughts -- is one of the many things
spouted in AA rooms and never -- ever -- talked about for real. Learn it.
Meditation requires only twenty minutes in the morning and twenty at night
to begin the process of teaching sotie how to quiet the mind. And a quiet
mind is incredibly happy, and not a drunken or drugged mind.

Once you get to a quiet mind, the meditator inside you -- the 'see-er' can
begin to learn why you feel something inside you that's shut down when you
poison yourself.

But wanting to know who you are -- to wake up, which is what sobriety really
is -- is the first step, brother. Don't give up -- you're the only one
fighting your battle.

Gary in tampa florida


On 9/2/07 3:39 AM, in article 46da68b9$0$27236$742ec2ed@news.sonic.net,
"sotie" wrote:

> I'm taking another stab at trying to figure out my life without
> alcohol. It was always something that could ease the pain from
> depression but instead it just makes life ten times worse. My roommate
> drinks and that for a long time has been the basis of our relationship.
> Right now I just feel like the walking dead always regretting the
> choices and situations I end up. It's only my fourth day sober and can't
> stop thinking about the future because the present is generally on edge
> and painful.

[Gary]

The media has convinced you that any over-done or bad or shitty behavior is
an addiction. Why not shut down your friggin computer for a few hours and
get a life.

Addiction is addiction. Playing with your cell phone for too many hours a
day or sitting in front of your computer all day just to occupy your brain
because it has nothing else to occupy itself with is being a childish little
asshole who thinks she or he is more important than other people.

Shut off your electricity for a week. See what it's like to live without air
conditioning. You'll forget your "addiction" to the internet. Give me a
break.

Try meditation. It means shutting up your brain and listening to silence.
Ever try that? Or when your system goes down to you instantly call technical
support. Read scriptures and words from the wise who lived before computers.
You may be amazed that such a time existed.



On 9/5/07 7:37 AM, in article C3040D44.C951%garypoyssick@mac.com, "Gary"
wrote:

> I've said this in a lot of postings and discussions about my stopping the
> incredibly and sad behavior I exhibited most of my adult life -- I drank and
> did drugs to stop feeling stuff, not to feel 'better'. I guess feeling
> better meant not feeling at all -- at least for me.
>
> Whether it's one day or ten thousand, the emotions you're feeling are inside
> you -- they have nothing to do at all, in any way, with chemicals, drugs,
> liquor, nothing. It's your feelings, emotions, and what some call the
> "organs of perception" (your eyes, heart, stomach, fingers, sexual organs,
> excreting organs, etc) that's making you feel bad.
>
> Meditation -- the silencing of our thoughts -- is one of the many things
> spouted in AA rooms and never -- ever -- talked about for real. Learn it.
> Meditation requires only twenty minutes in the morning and twenty at night
> to begin the process of teaching sotie how to quiet the mind. And a quiet
> mind is incredibly happy, and not a drunken or drugged mind.
>
> Once you get to a quiet mind, the meditator inside you -- the 'see-er' can
> begin to learn why you feel something inside you that's shut down when you
> poison yourself.
>
> But wanting to know who you are -- to wake up, which is what sobriety really
> is -- is the first step, brother. Don't give up -- you're the only one
> fighting your battle.
>
> Gary in tampa florida
>
>
> On 9/2/07 3:39 AM, in article 46da68b9$0$27236$742ec2ed@news.sonic.net,
> "sotie" wrote:
>
>> I'm taking another stab at trying to figure out my life without
>> alcohol. It was always something that could ease the pain from
>> depression but instead it just makes life ten times worse. My roommate
>> drinks and that for a long time has been the basis of our relationship.
>> Right now I just feel like the walking dead always regretting the
>> choices and situations I end up. It's only my fourth day sober and can't
>> stop thinking about the future because the present is generally on edge
>> and painful.
>