Confessions - evidence to move forward?

[rockhound]

At the risk of trivializing the power of confession, as an experiment,
here's a wee baby one for public inspection:

I imposed my childish desire for perfect friendship on an individual
who had no use for it. It was in the nature of an emotional demand
and an expectation, dishonestly hidden under what I would like to say
was 'just making conversation'. Subsequently rejected, feeling
unjustly misunderstood and unappreciated, (where I would seek to be
understood and appreciated) I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.

Now what do I do? Not really sure if you posters out there will work
properly as as 'another human being'...I am glimpsing another
emotional demand for forgiveness and acceptance ON USENET lol.

Sorry to impose, but, I guess due to rampant alcoholism, there is no
human being handy nearby here in my vicinity.

one foot in the water,
rockhound

[rockhound]

You're not answering fast enough.

[rockhound]

Panic sets in. What if these people can't help me.

[rockhound]

I will go get my mind off it. Thank you.

[rockhound]

Probably my motives are not correct and I am perceived as being tongue
in cheek. I will inspect this for any hint of truth. While I am
waitng for a reply. Alone, all by myself. In the kitchen.

[rockhound]

I cannot leave the keyboard. IS THERE ANYBODY OUT THERE?

[rockhound]

No. I will go to the kitchen.

[L.S.Lamey]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 12:07:25 GMT, rockhound <user@null.org> wrote:

>You're not answering fast enough.
fuck off
-

*There are three types of people in this world. Ones that can count, and those that can't.

[L.S.Lamey]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 12:12:40 GMT, rockhound <user@null.org> wrote:

>Probably my motives are not correct and I am perceived as being tongue
>in cheek. I will inspect this for any hint of truth. While I am
>waitng for a reply. Alone, all by myself. In the kitchen.

Hop over to the liqueur store and pick up a bottle, you'll be fine
soon.
-

*There are three types of people in this world. Ones that can count, and those that can't.

[rockhound]

I have it! An intuitive thought: When all else fails, lower your
standards.

I will stoop and go to an AA meeting today, inspect the room for
survivors, and look for the telltale signs of an understanding and
close-mouthed friend, and stop bothering you posters with my problems.

But, what are the telltale signs of an understanding and close-mouthed
friend?

If that doesn't work out I'll just grab someone sitting on a park
bench instead.

rocky ground

[rockhound]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 12:20:17 GMT, L.S.Lamey <teandson@netzero.net>
wrote:

>On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 12:07:25 GMT, rockhound <user@null.org> wrote:
>
>>You're not answering fast enough.
>fuck off

Thank you.

[rockhound]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 12:21:13 GMT, L.S.Lamey <teandson@netzero.net>
wrote:

>Hop over to the liqueur store and pick up a bottle, you'll be fine
>soon.

Ah, the voices are speaking to me again.

[rosie]

"rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
news:3787acb3fecadf8001492bff34faefea@news.teranew s.com...
:....................I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
: with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.


this is not unique to you.........................ask a few in here!

:
: Now what do I do?


hopefully NOT apologize with words, but rather with actions.
you have the ability to be a "good example" or just be another
malcontent.
the choice is yours!

[Robert McGregor]

¿ _ & ð

rosie wrote:
> "rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
> news:3787acb3fecadf8001492bff34faefea@news.teranew s.com...
> :....................I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
>> with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.
>
>
> this is not unique to you.........................ask a few in here!
>
>>
>> Now what do I do?
>
>
> hopefully NOT apologize with words, but rather with actions.
> you have the ability to be a "good example" or just be another
> malcontent.
> the choice is yours!

[neuro equipoise]

On - Wed, Apr 28, 2004, 12:30pm (EDT+4) user@null.org (rockhound)
wrote:

> But, what are the telltale signs of an
> understanding and close-mouthed friend?

Catatonic mutism

[rockhound]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 10:21:21 -0400, NeuroEquipoise@webtv.net (neuro
equipoise) wrote:

>On - Wed, Apr 28, 2004, 12:30pm (EDT+4) user@null.org (rockhound)
>wrote:
>
>> But, what are the telltale signs of an
>> understanding and close-mouthed friend?
>
>Catatonic mutism

Does this mean a non-survivor might do? It's near noon and I'm on my
way...afraid I might come out still smelling like rosies.

[rosie]

....afraid I might come out still smelling like rosies.

ROTFLMAO...........................

--
rosie

"To announce that there must be no criticism of the president, or
that
we are to stand by the president right or wrong, is not only
unpatriotic
and servile, but is morally treasonable to the American public."
........................................T.Roosevel t





"rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
news:80e4c0366aed09015fa6716fccf4653c@news.teranew s.com...
: On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 10:21:21 -0400, NeuroEquipoise@webtv.net
(neuro
: equipoise) wrote:
:
: >On - Wed, Apr 28, 2004, 12:30pm (EDT+4) user@null.org
(rockhound)
: >wrote:
: >
: >> But, what are the telltale signs of an
: >> understanding and close-mouthed friend?
: >
: >Catatonic mutism
:
: Does this mean a non-survivor might do? It's near noon and I'm
on my
: way...afraid I might come out still smelling like rosies.

[Christine]

> I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
>with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.
>
>Now what do I do?

You need to move past it, I suppose. The sbest way to do that, in my opinion
would be to apologize for being unkind and let it lay. In the future do your
best to avoid those damn expectations.

[[[]]]

"rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
news:b0d16aa0c5c5c14b19b5bd3746f1b578@news.teranew s.com...
> No. I will go to the kitchen.

keep comin' back.

[Mias]

Dear Rock
If you want loyalty try a Border Collie. As for your emotional dependency,
BPD and psychopathic tendencies, don't worry, that is par for the course
with an alcoholic and becomes slightly better with time.
Thinking of you in your turmoil and pray that if you can not find perfection
as a goal that perfection will find you as a goal.
Kind regards
Mias
"rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
news:3787acb3fecadf8001492bff34faefea@news.teranew s.com...
> At the risk of trivializing the power of confession, as an experiment,
> here's a wee baby one for public inspection:
>
> I imposed my childish desire for perfect friendship on an individual
> who had no use for it. It was in the nature of an emotional demand
> and an expectation, dishonestly hidden under what I would like to say
> was 'just making conversation'. Subsequently rejected, feeling
> unjustly misunderstood and unappreciated, (where I would seek to be
> understood and appreciated) I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
> with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.
>
> Now what do I do? Not really sure if you posters out there will work
> properly as as 'another human being'...I am glimpsing another
> emotional demand for forgiveness and acceptance ON USENET lol.
>
> Sorry to impose, but, I guess due to rampant alcoholism, there is no
> human being handy nearby here in my vicinity.
>
> one foot in the water,
> rockhound

[Jonathan Bratt]

In message <c6q2hj$ldh$1@ctb-nnrp2.saix.net>, Mias
<emiasdont@spamnetactive.co.za> writes
>Dear Rock
>If you want loyalty try a Border Collie. As for your emotional dependency,
>BPD and psychopathic tendencies, don't worry, that is par for the course
>with an alcoholic and becomes slightly better with time.
>Thinking of you in your turmoil and pray that if you can not find perfection
>as a goal that perfection will find you as a goal.
>Kind regards
>Mias

Although directed at another that has given me something to think about.

Thank you.

Jonathan

--
Jonathan Bratt

[rockhound]

On 29 Apr 2004 03:04:35 GMT, ctbean3@aol.com (Christine) wrote:

>> I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
>>with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.
>>
>>Now what do I do?
>
>You need to move past it, I suppose. The sbest way to do that, in my opinion
>would be to apologize for being unkind and let it lay. In the future do your
>best to avoid those damn expectations.

Very reasonable. I will try this. Thank you for taking the time.

little steps for little people,
rockhound

[rockhound]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 22:15:02 -0500, "[[]]" <[[]]@[[]].com> wrote:

>
>"rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
>news:b0d16aa0c5c5c14b19b5bd3746f1b578@news.teranew s.com...
>> No. I will go to the kitchen.
>
>keep comin' back.

lol - Hey I did! Nothing happened! Not till the last flicker of
hope for immediate gratification and human comfort was extinguished
and I turned back again to he-to-whom-i-am-not-speaking-today for
answers.

[rockhound]

On Thu, 29 Apr 2004 07:06:37 +0200, "Mias"
<emiasdont@spamnetactive.co.za> wrote:

>Dear Rock
>If you want loyalty try a Border Collie. As for your emotional dependency,
>BPD and psychopathic tendencies, don't worry, that is par for the course
>with an alcoholic and becomes slightly better with time.
>Thinking of you in your turmoil and pray that if you can not find perfection
>as a goal that perfection will find you as a goal.
>Kind regards
>Mias

I must say Gail's puppy was starting to look good.
r.

>"rockhound" <user@null.org> wrote in message
>news:3787acb3fecadf8001492bff34faefea@news.teranew s.com...
>> At the risk of trivializing the power of confession, as an experiment,
>> here's a wee baby one for public inspection:
>>
>> I imposed my childish desire for perfect friendship on an individual
>> who had no use for it. It was in the nature of an emotional demand
>> and an expectation, dishonestly hidden under what I would like to say
>> was 'just making conversation'. Subsequently rejected, feeling
>> unjustly misunderstood and unappreciated, (where I would seek to be
>> understood and appreciated) I became hurt and angry, and retaliated
>> with unkindness. This is a recurring difficulty.
>>
>> Now what do I do? Not really sure if you posters out there will work
>> properly as as 'another human being'...I am glimpsing another
>> emotional demand for forgiveness and acceptance ON USENET lol.
>>
>> Sorry to impose, but, I guess due to rampant alcoholism, there is no
>> human being handy nearby here in my vicinity.
>>
>> one foot in the water,
>> rockhound
>

[rockhound]

On Wed, 28 Apr 2004 10:21:21 -0400, NeuroEquipoise@webtv.net (neuro
equipoise) wrote:

>On - Wed, Apr 28, 2004, 12:30pm (EDT+4) user@null.org (rockhound)
>wrote:
>
>> But, what are the telltale signs of an
>> understanding and close-mouthed friend?
>
>Catatonic mutism

Did find one catatonic mute at the local AA meeting, thanks for that
suggestion... even if he is or would ever become capable of speech
nobody would probly ever believe a word of it. I'll feel him out for
the 'understanding' part next.

Should note, btw, too, gladly, that AA still lives despite its name
having been traded to Pfizer et al. What a relief to find that out!
It's just harder to find in the phone book now. Will have to try
doing as they say and seek out anonymous alcoholics to work with.