I just wanted to share with all of you that I drank this past weekend. I
deliberatly drank Saturday night, and tried to drink away the guilt all day
yesterday. I have been hungover and feel like crap today ... I went on a
commitment with my group tonight. I'll be okay.

One day at a time. I made it through 24 hours.

No tears as of yet. I feel numb, confused. It is late and I'm going to bed
.... I'm wishing everyone here the best.

-Christine

You know Christine, reading your post does more to keep me sober than
reading someone's cheery post that they've been sober 80+ years now... Your
post reminds me how I felt after a two week binge ended 17 days
ago -especially the confusion. Each relapse I have gets worse, and that's
what I need to never forget. Thanks for your courageous post. -Fred



"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040126232828.11541.00000876@mb-m12.aol.com...
> I just wanted to share with all of you that I drank this past weekend. I
> deliberatly drank Saturday night, and tried to drink away the guilt all
day
> yesterday. I have been hungover and feel like crap today ... I went on a
> commitment with my group tonight. I'll be okay.
>
> One day at a time. I made it through 24 hours.
>
> No tears as of yet. I feel numb, confused. It is late and I'm going to
bed
> ... I'm wishing everyone here the best.
>
> -Christine

doesn't have to be a whole day at a time either. An hour at a time, 5
minutes at a time.

Don't be hard on yourself, us kind of people are good at being hard on
ourselves
good luck :-)

craig

"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040126232828.11541.00000876@mb-m12.aol.com...
> I just wanted to share with all of you that I drank this past weekend. I
> deliberatly drank Saturday night, and tried to drink away the guilt all
day
> yesterday. I have been hungover and feel like crap today ... I went on a
> commitment with my group tonight. I'll be okay.
>
> One day at a time. I made it through 24 hours.
>
> No tears as of yet. I feel numb, confused. It is late and I'm going to
bed
> ... I'm wishing everyone here the best.
>
> -Christine

[On Mon, 26 Jan 2004 21:54:55 -0800, "Fred Exley"
<fexly221@msn.com> wrote:]

> You know Christine, reading your post does more to keep me sober than
> reading someone's cheery post that they've been sober 80+ years now... Your
> post reminds me how I felt after a two week binge ended 17 days
> ago -especially the confusion. Each relapse I have gets worse, and that's
> what I need to never forget. Thanks for your courageous post. -Fred

Keep posting, Fred.
--
Harry <---- who recently changed his email address

"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040126232828.11541.00000876@mb-m12.aol.com...
> I just wanted to share with all of you that I drank this past
weekend. I
> deliberatly drank Saturday night, and tried to drink away the guilt
all day
> yesterday. I have been hungover and feel like crap today ... I went
on a
> commitment with my group tonight. I'll be okay.
>
> One day at a time. I made it through 24 hours.
>
> No tears as of yet. I feel numb, confused. It is late and I'm
going to bed
> ... I'm wishing everyone here the best.
>
> -Christine

Hi Christine,

Since stopping drinking last June, I've wanted to drink more than
once. Usually, I've wanted to drink on account of having had a bad
day Sometimes, I've also wanted to drink because the smell of wine
that I pour out for my husband at night has reminded me of how much I
used to enjoy wine. At other times, I've simply wanted to drink as an
experiment to find out whether or not I am now able to control my
drinking. <g> None of the earlier such experiments that I've done
have
proved that I can control my drinking :^) At this time, I have no
hope of being ever able to control it therefore when I tempted to
drink, I find it helpful to think about some of the following:

1. I am powerless over alcohol

2. Drinking has never solved any of my life problems; it won't do so
now;

3. If I drink, tomorrow I'll have to cope not only with my life
problems but also a hangover, feelings of guilt, shame and a sense of
failure. Why make life harder for myself ? :^).

4. If I drink tomorrow, I'll have wasted all the time and effort I
and others who have been helping me, have put in to help me get to
where I was yesterday.

5. If I drink again, my quality of life will rapidly deteriorate.

Dear Christine,

If what I have said helps you in way, I shall be pleased.

Wishing you all the best (as always)

JB

Hi Christine,

No failure is really a failure if you learn something in the process. Learn
from it and use the experience to gain strength. Do not criticise yourself,
there are plenty of people out there that will do it for you.

Believe in yourself, pick yourself up and don't spend any more time than
necessary on your mistakes. Learn from it and move on. Or as some people
say: Name it, Claim it and Dump it.

Best wishes and hang in there baby!

Kirk S.
"Christine" <ctbean3@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20040126232828.11541.00000876@mb-m12.aol.com...
> I just wanted to share with all of you that I drank this past weekend. I
> deliberatly drank Saturday night, and tried to drink away the guilt all
day
> yesterday. I have been hungover and feel like crap today ... I went on a
> commitment with my group tonight. I'll be okay.
>
> One day at a time. I made it through 24 hours.
>
> No tears as of yet. I feel numb, confused. It is late and I'm going to
bed
> ... I'm wishing everyone here the best.
>
> -Christine

"Fred Exley" <fexly221@msn.com> wrote in message
news:101bv9b556sgg12@corp.supernews.com...
> You know Christine, reading your post does more to keep me sober
than
> reading someone's cheery post that they've been sober 80+ years
now... Your
> post reminds me how I felt after a two week binge ended 17 days
> ago -especially the confusion. Each relapse I have gets worse,
and that's
> what I need to never forget. Thanks for your courageous
ost. -Fred
>

fred,
all that is required of us to have recovery is 24 HRS at a
time.....................
reminding myself of that principle, is as easy as reading the posts
here, going to frequent AA meetings, and having some daily spiritual
contact with my HP.

that SPIRITUAL contact reminds me, that i have a disease, and taking
"the medicine" is what works for me!

rosie

"Kirk S" <kspradling@nospamkc.rr.com> wrote in message
news:iXtRb.115684$fq1.92707@twister.rdc-kc.rr.com...
> Hi Christine,
>
> No failure is really a failure if you learn something in the
process. Learn
> from it and use the experience to gain strength. Do not criticise
yourself,
> there are plenty of people out there that will do it for you.
>
> Believe in yourself, pick yourself up and don't spend any more
time than
> necessary on your mistakes. Learn from it and move on. Or as
some people
> say: Name it, Claim it and Dump it.



good advise kirk!
may i add one christine?

try to stay away from folks who encourage you to be negative/angry,
it will trip up an alcoholic EVERYTIME!

" >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
news:fxvRb.109567$VV4.19761@twister.rdc-kc.rr.com...
> "Kirk S" <kspradling@nospamkc.rr.com> wrote in message
> news:iXtRb.115684$fq1.92707@twister.rdc-kc.rr.com...
> > Hi Christine,
> >
> > No failure is really a failure if you learn something in the
> process. Learn
> > from it and use the experience to gain strength. Do not criticise
> yourself,
> > there are plenty of people out there that will do it for you.
> >
> > Believe in yourself, pick yourself up and don't spend any more
> time than
> > necessary on your mistakes. Learn from it and move on. Or as
> some people
> > say: Name it, Claim it and Dump it.
>
>
>
> good advise kirk!
> may i add one christine?
>
> try to stay away from folks who encourage you to be negative/angry,
> it will trip up an alcoholic EVERYTIME!
>
I think that you're suggesting something that is impossible.

In *real* life (ie not this cyberworld)) nobody but a recluse is able
to avoid meeting people who disturb their peace of mind. For example,
I've spent the last three weeks trying to get someone from the company
which has my husband's computer for repair to tell us what's going on.
I've been ringing every weekday up to three times a day and left
messages on a voicemail. At one time, having to waste so much time on
the phone; having to deal with my husband's frustrations at not being
able to access his work and having to share my computer with him,
would have caused me to become so frustrated, angry and resentful that
I would, probably, have drunk on it.

Nowadays, when in situations that I cannot avoid, I try to remain calm
.. If this is impossible, I try to remember that if I subsequently use
the situation as an excuse/.reason to drink, I'm enabling it to cause
me further harm.

The point I'm trying to make is that if someone can't avoid having
their peace of mind disturbed, don't use what ever caused that
disturbance as an excuse/reason to drink unless one wants to
self-harm.

JB

> > try to stay away from folks who encourage you to be
negative/angry,
> > it will trip up an alcoholic EVERYTIME!
> >


"JB" <JBCatRB@coldman.com> wrote in message
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> I think that you're suggesting something that is impossible.
>


your service men ENCOURAGE you to be negative/angry?
or is that the way your CHOOSE to react?

i was referring to those who ENCOURAGE negative behavior in her
recovery program.
some of the conversations right here in ARAA are perfect examples.