" >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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>
> > >
> > I remember that Rosie used to claim that she will never be
> recovered
> > :^)
> >
> > JB
> >
> >
>
>
> here is an example of the behavior that i am referring to!

Rosie,

In using your own comment to correct Moonraker's assertion: that you
hold

"yourself out as the perfect example of recovery"

I appear to have touched a raw nerve.

Why ?

JB

> >
> > try to stay away from folks who encourage you to be
negative/angry,
> > it will trip up an alcoholic EVERYTIME!
> >
> >
>
> hahahahahahaha
>
>
> Folks who encourage you to be negative/angry = anyone who has been
here long
> enough to see rosies smarmy
> trolls for what they are.
>
> Bob


ROTFLMAO!
rosies smarmy trolls?

" >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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> i admit that i am happy with the way my life has turned out.
> i worked hard, with lots of help from my sponsor, and my AA
> meetings, to change the alcoholic behavior that i displayed.
> i am a very fortunate and blessed women, with a wonderful
> husband/best friend, four successful adult children and many
> friends!
>
From: "rosie@readandpost" <readandpost@yahoo.com>
Message-ID: <l%Rl5.19132$E05.337271@nntp0.chicago.il.ameritech .net>

>actually, i would have to say that i have had GOOD long term experience
with
>the treatment of my depression over the past 13yrs.
>i have however had to take several different meds as each once finally
>"wears out" and i need to change.

"rosie@readandpost" wrote in Message
<uoCc6.24059$Af.608669@typhoon.mw.mediaone.net>

>if there is a "better" antidepressant out there, i sure would like to read
>about it!

> I appear to have touched a raw nerve.
>
>
> JB
>
>

LOL!

ROTFLMAO!







"Robert McGregor" <robert_mcgregor@yahoo.com.au> wrote in message
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>
> " >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
> news:kxyRb.110899$VV4.20181@twister.rdc-kc.rr.com...
> > i admit that i am happy with the way my life has turned out.
> > i worked hard, with lots of help from my sponsor, and my AA
> > meetings, to change the alcoholic behavior that i displayed.
> > i am a very fortunate and blessed women, with a wonderful
> > husband/best friend, four successful adult children and many
> > friends!
> >
> From: "rosie@readandpost" <readandpost@yahoo.com>
> Message-ID:
<l%Rl5.19132$E05.337271@nntp0.chicago.il.ameritech .net>
>
> >actually, i would have to say that i have had GOOD long term
experience
> with
> >the treatment of my depression over the past 13yrs.
> >i have however had to take several different meds as each once
finally
> >"wears out" and i need to change.
>
> "rosie@readandpost" wrote in Message
> <uoCc6.24059$Af.608669@typhoon.mw.mediaone.net>
>
> >if there is a "better" antidepressant out there, i sure would
like to read
> >about it!
>
>

" >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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>
> > >
> > > try to stay away from folks who encourage you to be
> negative/angry,
> > > it will trip up an alcoholic EVERYTIME!
> > >
> > >
> >
> > hahahahahahaha
> >
> >
> > Folks who encourage you to be negative/angry = anyone who has been
> here long
> > enough to see rosies smarmy
> > trolls for what they are.
> >
> > Bob
>
>
> ROTFLMAO!
> rosies smarmy trolls?

>
"Ron" <can@the.spam> wrote in message
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> On Sat, 17 Jan 2004 05:09:02 GMT, -rosie-
<readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote:
>
> > (((((((((((((((((christine))))))))))))))))))))
>
> That's really fucking obnoxious. If I see one more goddamn parenthetic
> hug, rosie rote and post will never again touch my screen.
>
" >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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> ((((((((((((((((((((((((ron))))))))))))))))))))))) ))))))
> so sorry to read that you are down with the
> flu........................
>

>Hi Christine,
>
>It happens really easily, doesn't it? First you begin to think about it,
>then you start to rationalise it, then you start planning it, then BOOM.
>
>Then you think "why oh why did I do that?"
>
>Very few people "slip". The drink doesn't suddenly appear and "oops, I
>drank..." There's a long planning process first. Go back over what actually
>happened, when you first started planning Saturday night, and you will be
>better prepared next time to recognise when the Dragon is quietly snuggling
>up next to you.

Thanks to everyone for replying. This group (not a group, like a home group, I
know, but one of *my* groups all the same) has been encouraging and helpful to
me over the past few months. It is only proper for me to be honest with all of
you, and, as always, I am now reaping the benefits by the responses.

I went through the *why's* and *what happened* all day yesterday while I was
struggling through work trying not to vomit in my shoes, trying to act
"normal". Blah. Anyway, what I realized is I had been unintentially
"planning" on drinking all week long. I only went to two meetings last week,
compared to my usual 8 plus, and I was isolating. I didn't want to hear it,
any of it, setting myself up for a justified bender Saturday night. Not a drop
of worry or shame or guilt, even when I was sucking back Bud Light's on my ride
up to my boyfriends. have I learned nothing? What the f*ck?!?! Sunday,
however, was a different story. sunday was where my only instinctual coping
mechinism came into play. I was so ashamed, felt like such a failure. I
wasn't awake an hour before I cracked a beer, then went and had some Mai Tai's,
then some more beer, then a bottle of wine, sure, why not some more Mai Tai's?
And a few more beers. Damn. I called a member of my group, also a member of
the AWOL I was in, somewhere around the bottle of wine, and she gave me hope
and strength and listened to me cry and made me promise to go to the commitment
last night. Good thing, too, because who knows ... it's a lot easier to
justify another drink or two when you're shaking from teh night before ...
anyway, I am grateful I had joined a group, because I had somewhere to go. I
got lots of strong, powerful hugs, lots of smiles (smiles?!?! Didn't they know
I had just drank all weekend? Yes, they did. wowie) and words of wisdom.

After I posted my "confession" here last night, I checked my email and had a
beautiful email from my sponsor. She has my back. She is beautiful.

The guilt and shame are fading, I'm pushing them away ... I'm focusing on being
grateful - grateful I have so many people that care, grateful that I have
today, grateful for this group, grateful to be alive, grateful i didn't hurt
anyone while drinking and driving over the weekend, grateful for AA, grateful
for being sober at this moment, just for today.

Thanks again everyone.
-Christine

christine,
here is today meditation for the beginner..................
stay honest, stay close to your sponsor, and most of all stay in
your meetings!


Reflections for Beginners
from
'Hour To Hour - The First 30 Days'
- by Shelly Marshall
the author of 'Day By Day' & other Meditation Books




Whatever is on our mind at this time is probably something we
can do nothing about just now. We're fighting a fatal disease here
and our recovery is our TOP PRIORITY. Other considerations will
simply have to wait.

Help me to prioritize my needs: clean time, sober time,
recovery.

" >rosie<" <readandpostTAKETHISOUT@hotmail.com> wrote in message
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> christine,
> here is today meditation for the beginner..................
> stay honest, stay close to your sponsor, and most of all stay in
> your meetings!
>

Alternatively, if you want be more than merely captive audience fodder for
podium/sponsor junkies, you could utilise the AA program.

http://silkworth.net/bb/howitworks.html
Here are the steps we took, which are suggested as a program of recovery:
1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol- that our lives had become
unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than our-selves could restore us to
sanity.

3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as
we understood Him.

4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.

5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact
nature of our wrongs.

6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.

7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.

8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make
amends to them all.

9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so
would injure them or others.

10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly
admitted it.

11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact
with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us
and the power to carry that out.

12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried
to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all
our affairs.

Bob

"Robert McGregor" <robert_mcgregor@yahoo.com.au> wrote in message
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>
> Alternatively, if you want be more than merely captive audience
fodder for
> podium/sponsor junkies, you could utilise the AA program.
>
>


ROTFLMAO!
and sponsor yourself, like bob does!

LOL!