Hello Everyone, On a drunk coke binge I crashed my truck and fractured my back
and my leg so I am staying with family while I heal, Me and my wife are
seperated.
I can't really leave the house because of my injuries but started going to
meetings this past week. I am on pain killers which so far I have not been
abusing . The problem is there is gallons and gallons of alcohol here and I
have been getting drunk.
Before me and my wife split I was totally sober for over 4 years and went to
aa meetings every week, it is just so hard sitting home all day when I am used
to working 6 and 7 days a week. I am so depressed the only thing that brings me
out of it is a few drinks.
Because I was sober for a while I know that most of what I am writing is
bullshit and I am just feeling sorry for myself but not sure how to get out of
it when I really can't get to meetings and I am not able to go to work. I just
sit here day in and day out trying to heal my body and missing my wife.
I am glad I found this group because I needed to vent and my family doesn't
understand this illness and I have been hiding my drinking. I am so depressed I
would probably doing dope and coke if I weren't hurt so bad. Maybe it's God's
way of keeping me off the hard stuff and forcing me to look at my life for the
next 3 months. Help
Thanks for listening,
Dave

dave,
welcome to the group and THANKS for your honesty!
how about some ONLINE AA MEETINGS?

http://www.aa-intergroup.org/

you said that you DID start back to meetings last
week.................can you get more rides to more meetings, so you can
get out of the house?

--
read and post daily, it works!
rosie

in the practice of tolerance,
one's enemy is the best teacher.
...............................dalai lama







"Dscoddy74" <dscoddy74@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20031115121937.02030.00000263@mb-m16.aol.com...
> Hello Everyone, On a drunk coke binge I crashed my truck and fractured
my back
> and my leg so I am staying with family while I heal, Me and my wife
are
> seperated.
> I can't really leave the house because of my injuries but started
going to
> meetings this past week. I am on pain killers which so far I have not
been
> abusing . The problem is there is gallons and gallons of alcohol here
and I
> have been getting drunk.
> Before me and my wife split I was totally sober for over 4 years and
went to
> aa meetings every week, it is just so hard sitting home all day when I
am used
> to working 6 and 7 days a week. I am so depressed the only thing that
brings me
> out of it is a few drinks.
> Because I was sober for a while I know that most of what I am
writing is
> bullshit and I am just feeling sorry for myself but not sure how to
get out of
> it when I really can't get to meetings and I am not able to go to
work. I just
> sit here day in and day out trying to heal my body and missing my
wife.
> I am glad I found this group because I needed to vent and my family
doesn't
> understand this illness and I have been hiding my drinking. I am so
depressed I
> would probably doing dope and coke if I weren't hurt so bad. Maybe
it's God's
> way of keeping me off the hard stuff and forcing me to look at my life
for the
> next 3 months. Help
> Thanks for listening,
> Dave

dave,
use the link and get yourself signed up for several different
groups.......................while you need them, they will fill a HUGE
void for you...................





--
read and post daily, it works!
rosie

in the practice of tolerance,
one's enemy is the best teacher.
...............................dalai lama







"Dscoddy74" <dscoddy74@aol.com> wrote in message
news:20031115124212.03567.00000241@mb-m29.aol.com...
> Hi Rosie, Thank you so much for responding. Because of the abuse I
have pretty
> much lost all my real friends and most of my family. I could sure use
some
> sober friends right now. I know this may not be the right forum but I
am also
> Bipolar and have been off my pills for 2 months or so and have to wait
a while
> to see my shrink.
> Getting a ride to meetings is not the problem. I have a hard time
standing or
> sitting up-right because I fractured my back in 2 places. As I heal
and time
> passes I will be able to make more meetings.
> I think I will be hanging out here now. Thanks for the Link.
> Dave

Hi Rosie, Thank you so much for responding. Because of the abuse I have pretty
much lost all my real friends and most of my family. I could sure use some
sober friends right now. I know this may not be the right forum but I am also
Bipolar and have been off my pills for 2 months or so and have to wait a while
to see my shrink.
Getting a ride to meetings is not the problem. I have a hard time standing or
sitting up-right because I fractured my back in 2 places. As I heal and time
passes I will be able to make more meetings.
I think I will be hanging out here now. Thanks for the Link.
Dave

[On 15 Nov 2003 17:19:37 GMT, dscoddy74@aol.com
(Dscoddy74) wrote:]

> Thanks for listening,

I'm not going to comment on all that.

I will say that getting out of the house is one of the
things I need to do. If it needs to be on crutches, then
so be it.

Anyone have any advice on a broken marriage? We have no kids but I hurt her
terribly. I miss her deeply.
Dave

On 15 Nov 2003 17:42:12 GMT, dscoddy74@aol.com (Dscoddy74) wrote:

> Hi Rosie, Thank you so much for responding. Because of the abuse I have pretty
>much lost all my real friends and most of my family. I could sure use some
>sober friends right now. I know this may not be the right forum but I am also
>Bipolar and have been off my pills for 2 months or so and have to wait a while
>to see my shrink.
> Getting a ride to meetings is not the problem. I have a hard time standing or
>sitting up-right because I fractured my back in 2 places. As I heal and time
>passes I will be able to make more meetings.
> I think I will be hanging out here now. Thanks for the Link.
> Dave
Hi Dave, My best friedn and former SO , who has ten years sobriety, me
I have 20, is bi-polar, so I understand what you are talking about
being off medication! Another link is to an AA email group, such as
aI belong to which is New Beginnings. Hope this helps and there are
several memebers of it in both here and Alt. recovery-AA.

Kathy G.

On Sat, 15 Nov 2003 17:29:30 +0000, rosie read and post wrote:

> dave,
> welcome to the group and THANKS for your honesty!
> how about some ONLINE AA MEETINGS?
>
> http://www.aa-intergroup.org/
>
> you said that you DID start back to meetings last
> week.................can you get more rides to more meetings, so you can
> get out of the house?

Rosie,

Thanx for the link! I didn't know there were things out there like that.
The online AA meetings thing, I mean. The Java chat interface is nice,
but do you know of any "normal" IRC Alcoholic groups? Still, thanx for
the link. I see there's a BB meeting tonight at 10:00 PM (Eastern). I
think I'll still be awake.

i haven't done an IRC meeting in a long time...............i prefer my
email groups now......................but that could change!


--
read and post daily, it works!
rosie

in the practice of tolerance,
one's enemy is the best teacher.
...............................dalai lama







"Xanadu" <xanadu@inorbit.com> wrote in message
newsan.2003.11.18.01.44.21.426871@inorbit.com...
> On Sat, 15 Nov 2003 17:29:30 +0000, rosie read and post wrote:
>
> > dave,
> > welcome to the group and THANKS for your honesty!
> > how about some ONLINE AA MEETINGS?
> >
> > http://www.aa-intergroup.org/
> >
> > you said that you DID start back to meetings last
> > week.................can you get more rides to more meetings, so you
can
> > get out of the house?
>
> Rosie,
>
> Thanx for the link! I didn't know there were things out there like
that.
> The online AA meetings thing, I mean. The Java chat interface is
nice,
> but do you know of any "normal" IRC Alcoholic groups? Still, thanx
for
> the link. I see there's a BB meeting tonight at 10:00 PM (Eastern).
I
> think I'll still be awake.
>
>

[On 15 Nov 2003 17:19:37 GMT, dscoddy74@aol.com (Dscoddy74)
wrote:]

> I am glad I found this group because I needed to vent and my family doesn't
> understand this illness and I have been hiding my drinking. I am so depressed I
> would probably doing dope and coke if I weren't hurt so bad. Maybe it's God's
> way of keeping me off the hard stuff and forcing me to look at my life for the
> next 3 months. Help

I think it's shrink time -- both for you and for me.

One of my problems is being at home. I don't know why that is,
but my psychiatrist wants me out of the house. Not out looking
for liquor stores, but doing something productive. If I had to
stay at the house all day, I'd be dead. And I am getting there.

You make excuses like I do.

The people on this newsgroup are mostly anti med's. But I just
don't see getting anywhere without them. I have tried. Not
just a little. I think maybe you should look into that. It is
better than killing yourself or someone else.

At least tell your parents to get the booze out of the house.
One of the things I have been trying to do is to tell everyone I
know that I have a "drinking problem". They all knew that
anyway, but saying it out loud isn't hurting me half as much as
the alcohol.

Another thing I hear in your message is your missing
relationship with your wife. Feeling lonely is not helpful.

The steps I would recommend to you are essentially the same ones
that I am recommending to myself. Get out of there, get a new
relationship, see a shrink, get on some med's, etc. It's a long
list.

One of the things is not to hook up with another drunk. AA
meetings are not a good place to find a date. Nor is this
forum, despite my attempts at making jokes about that.