What's left??

Well, I've been addicted to many things and given them all up.

Smoking, drinking at least 2 bottles of fine red wine each nght, eating
(since becoming diabetic), sex (an odd disease related I think to diabetes)
and various recreational drugs.

I've been sober for 12 months, without help, support, God etc, just stopped.

But while I've no doubt that I can function much better professionally
(aside from stress handling that is), I find myself quite empty. Bouts of
depression set in now and then that last a day or so, but getting shorter as
time goes on.

What's left is a grey place with very little to look forward to.

What do you folk who have been there do to keep yourself motivated? I can
see nothing but another 30 years of work, followed by a brief retirement
then well... you know.

Is this normal?

Thanks for listening to my little sook. I'd appreciate any wise words.

Cheers - Mike

On Feb 5, 9:32*pm, "Vegemike" <m...@here.com> wrote:
>
>
> Is this normal?
>
> Thanks for listening to my little sook. I'd appreciate any wise words.
>
> Cheers - Mike

death is normal. everything else is pure luck.

12 months .. is nothing.

But according to da'book ... you aren't not one of us. Just a person
with a drinking problem.

I'd like to know more about ... your sexual addiction ... mine was
cured after I got married !
it ain't fair ... just ain'y fair.

On Wed, 06 Feb 2008 14:32:51 +1100, Vegemike wrote:

> Well, I've been addicted to many things and given them all up.
>
> Smoking, drinking at least 2 bottles of fine red wine each nght, eating
> (since becoming diabetic), sex (an odd disease related I think to diabetes)
> and various recreational drugs.
>
> I've been sober for 12 months, without help, support, God etc, just stopped.
>
> But while I've no doubt that I can function much better professionally
> (aside from stress handling that is), I find myself quite empty. Bouts of
> depression set in now and then that last a day or so, but getting shorter as
> time goes on.
>
> What's left is a grey place with very little to look forward to.

I think what you're saying is: http://whytehouse.com/big_book_searc.../ch11p152.html


"He cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to
imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know
loneliness such as few do. He will be at the jumping-off place. He will
wish for the end."


Only the first half of the first step deals with alcohol. I did that from
08/12/01 to 1/3/03. After doing more research for about 6 months, I did
the other 11 1/2 steps.


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