I wrote not too long ago about wanting to take a drink and being scared
about it, then the next day I wasn't feeling scared. Well, I should
reiterate that I will always be scared about taking that next drink.
It's something I don't want to do but there's always something flashing
in the back of my mind telling me there would be NO HARM AND NO FOUL in
taking one more drink.

I guess being an alcoholic and admitting to a problem is expressing that
we're powerless to alcohol and we will always have cravings and desires
to take "YET ANOTHER DRINK" even when the will to not drink overpowers
the will to submit and drink. That's what's scary. I guess I'll always
be scared in that sense.

My goal for this year is to keep from drinking. My goal for the first
year of sobriety was to stop drinking and I proved to myself that one
year is possible. After one year, I feel I need help to keep up the
momentum and to stay away from anything alcoholic and to change my
lifestyle. If I can last 2 years, I can last 5, if I can last 5, I can
last 10, if I can last 10, I can live my life.

Happy and healthy life to everyone.

Monty

one day at a time, we accumulate time...............going to meetings, i
accumulate knowledge.
congrats to you!

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"Montgomery BOO...URNS" <solitude439@rcn.com> wrote in message
news:WcOdnScFg46TM8XYnZ2dnUVZ_sOdnZ2d@rcn.net...
>I wrote not too long ago about wanting to take a drink and being scared
>about it, then the next day I wasn't feeling scared. Well, I should
>reiterate that I will always be scared about taking that next drink. It's
>something I don't want to do but there's always something flashing in the
>back of my mind telling me there would be NO HARM AND NO FOUL in taking one
>more drink.
>
> I guess being an alcoholic and admitting to a problem is expressing that
> we're powerless to alcohol and we will always have cravings and desires to
> take "YET ANOTHER DRINK" even when the will to not drink overpowers the
> will to submit and drink. That's what's scary. I guess I'll always be
> scared in that sense.
>
> My goal for this year is to keep from drinking. My goal for the first
> year of sobriety was to stop drinking and I proved to myself that one year
> is possible. After one year, I feel I need help to keep up the momentum
> and to stay away from anything alcoholic and to change my lifestyle. If I
> can last 2 years, I can last 5, if I can last 5, I can last 10, if I can
> last 10, I can live my life.
>
> Happy and healthy life to everyone.
>
> Monty

"Montgomery BOO...URNS" <solitude439@rcn.com> wrote in
news:WcOdnScFg46TM8XYnZ2dnUVZ_sOdnZ2d@rcn.net:

> I wrote not too long ago about wanting to take a drink and being scared
> about it, then the next day I wasn't feeling scared. Well, I should
> reiterate that I will always be scared about taking that next drink.
> It's something I don't want to do but there's always something flashing
> in the back of my mind telling me there would be NO HARM AND NO FOUL in
> taking one more drink.
>
> I guess being an alcoholic and admitting to a problem is expressing that
> we're powerless to alcohol and we will always have cravings and desires
> to take "YET ANOTHER DRINK" even when the will to not drink overpowers
> the will to submit and drink. That's what's scary. I guess I'll always
> be scared in that sense.
>
> My goal for this year is to keep from drinking. My goal for the first
> year of sobriety was to stop drinking and I proved to myself that one
> year is possible. After one year, I feel I need help to keep up the
> momentum and to stay away from anything alcoholic and to change my
> lifestyle. If I can last 2 years, I can last 5, if I can last 5, I can
> last 10, if I can last 10, I can live my life.
>
> Happy and healthy life to everyone.
>
> Monty

Set a goal if it helps you, but most of us only try to get through today.
You can't LIVE tomorrow today, you can oly plan for it!