I'm scared that I might start drinking again. There isn't a day that
goes by that I think about JUST ONE DRINK to get through the day! There
are days when stress levels are so incredible that I feel that having a
drink or going back to the days of drinking on the weekends will make
everything better.

My stress levels get so high that there are times I think about suicide.
I don't want to feel this way. I'm happy living life, but these
thoughts seem to haunt me. Alcohol used to be my way out of that mode
of thinking. I wish I didn't have to feel so much pain. I don't know
what to do.

Sometimes I feel like I'm chasing my tail. I feel good, I have fun and
then the next day I feel like crap. I want to overcome the stress
without drink but I also want to rid the stresses of daily life. These
stresses have been magnified 100x since I quit and it only makes the
next drink look so good.

I don't want this! I think I need more help!

Please!

Monty

Montgomery BOO...URNS wrote:
> I'm scared that I might start drinking again. There isn't a day that
> goes by that I think about JUST ONE DRINK to get through the day! There
> are days when stress levels are so incredible that I feel that having a
> drink or going back to the days of drinking on the weekends will make
> everything better.
>
> My stress levels get so high that there are times I think about suicide.
> I don't want to feel this way. I'm happy living life, but these
> thoughts seem to haunt me. Alcohol used to be my way out of that mode
> of thinking. I wish I didn't have to feel so much pain. I don't know
> what to do.
>
> Sometimes I feel like I'm chasing my tail. I feel good, I have fun and
> then the next day I feel like crap. I want to overcome the stress
> without drink but I also want to rid the stresses of daily life. These
> stresses have been magnified 100x since I quit and it only makes the
> next drink look so good.
>
> I don't want this! I think I need more help!
>
> Please!
>
> Monty
Are you going to meetings? If so, how many per week? Do you have a
sponsor? Are you calling him?

You don't say how long you've been sober, but your feelings are normal.
You need to be around (or at least talk to)other recovering alcoholics
when you are feeling that way.

Keeping my feelings to myself kept me drunk for a long time.

Charlie M. 1958 wrote:
> Montgomery BOO...URNS wrote:
>> I'm scared that I might start drinking again. There isn't a day that
>> goes by that I think about JUST ONE DRINK to get through the day!
>> There are days when stress levels are so incredible that I feel that
>> having a drink or going back to the days of drinking on the weekends
>> will make everything better.
>>
>> My stress levels get so high that there are times I think about
>> suicide. I don't want to feel this way. I'm happy living life, but
>> these thoughts seem to haunt me. Alcohol used to be my way out of
>> that mode of thinking. I wish I didn't have to feel so much pain. I
>> don't know what to do.
>>
>> Sometimes I feel like I'm chasing my tail. I feel good, I have fun and
>> then the next day I feel like crap. I want to overcome the stress
>> without drink but I also want to rid the stresses of daily life.
>> These stresses have been magnified 100x since I quit and it only makes
>> the next drink look so good.
>>
>> I don't want this! I think I need more help!
>>
>> Please!
>>
>> Monty
> Are you going to meetings? If so, how many per week? Do you have a
> sponsor? Are you calling him?
>
> You don't say how long you've been sober, but your feelings are normal.
> You need to be around (or at least talk to)other recovering alcoholics
> when you are feeling that way.
>
> Keeping my feelings to myself kept me drunk for a long time.

I haven't been to a meeting in a while! I've been sick in the hospital.
I should get to a few meetings this week. Until then, I'm debating on
calling a mental health specialist. My employer has an on site nurse
who can refer me to someone.

Montgomery BOO...URNS wrote:
> Charlie M. 1958 wrote:
>> Montgomery BOO...URNS wrote:
>>> I'm scared that I might start drinking again. There isn't a day that
>>> goes by that I think about JUST ONE DRINK to get through the day!
>>> There are days when stress levels are so incredible that I feel that
>>> having a drink or going back to the days of drinking on the weekends
>>> will make everything better.
>>>
>>> My stress levels get so high that there are times I think about
>>> suicide. I don't want to feel this way. I'm happy living life, but
>>> these thoughts seem to haunt me. Alcohol used to be my way out of
>>> that mode of thinking. I wish I didn't have to feel so much pain. I
>>> don't know what to do.
>>>
>>> Sometimes I feel like I'm chasing my tail. I feel good, I have fun
>>> and then the next day I feel like crap. I want to overcome the
>>> stress without drink but I also want to rid the stresses of daily
>>> life. These stresses have been magnified 100x since I quit and it
>>> only makes the next drink look so good.
>>>
>>> I don't want this! I think I need more help!
>>>
>>> Please!
>>>
>>> Monty
>> Are you going to meetings? If so, how many per week? Do you have a
>> sponsor? Are you calling him?
>>
>> You don't say how long you've been sober, but your feelings are
>> normal. You need to be around (or at least talk to)other recovering
>> alcoholics when you are feeling that way.
>>
>> Keeping my feelings to myself kept me drunk for a long time.
>
> I haven't been to a meeting in a while! I've been sick in the hospital.
> I should get to a few meetings this week. Until then, I'm debating on
> calling a mental health specialist. My employer has an on site nurse
> who can refer me to someone.
Do it! Always take advantage of any help that is available to you.

On Mon, 06 Nov 2006 11:29:29 -0500, Montgomery BOO...URNS wrote:

> I haven't been to a meeting in a while! I've been sick in the hospital.
> I should get to a few meetings this week. Until then, I'm debating on
> calling a mental health specialist. My employer has an on site nurse
> who can refer me to someone.

Call your local intergroup and ask them if they can arrange a meeting to
come to you. They do that in some areas.


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