Meeting 10 AM

Have my alarm set and ready to go at a 10AM
meeting. I am excited. I really am. When i quit
before i actually looked forward to meetings.
Just don't wanna get up so early Oh well that
will be a small price to pay for such a great
gift, the gift being sobriety.

And yes 10 AM is early i leave for work at 1:30
get home about 2:30 in the morning. Nothing a cup
of coffee can't take care of.

Fucking right, quit smoking 75 days ago, now
drinking. Drinking will take much more work and
effort. Time to get the Big Book out and start
reading again. Time to read my 24 hours a day
book daily. Time to get in the sobriety zone and
live a more fulfilling life. Time to stop being
selfish spend more time with my family and
nondrinking friends. Hard part is i have plenty
of friends who are alcoholics and from past
experience i can't really be around cause like me,
everything is planned around drinking. Can't be
around that shit.

Got in plenty of trouble drinking, legal, job
loss, etc. etc. list goes on. Back on my feet
again ok job, time to get some sobriety under my
belt and change my life around.

And no i am not a fallen down drunk, drink a fifth
a day, etc. etc. I drink anywhere from 1 to 20
beers. Still healthy, etc. etc. BUT, i feel
alcohol has taken alot from me emotionally and
drained people close to me emotionally. And i am
definitely an alcoholic, i've been out of denial
after about my third and final drunk driving so i
got that taken care of. Know the principles of
AA. Went to AA, but I did it for show, to look
good for court, and i didn't work on the steps
good enough. I liked going and it helped my
sobriety but i didn't work on it hard enough.

This time will be different. NO MORE.

"Bryan" <bekberg@charter.net> wrote in message
news:f8YLe.33712$_41.26132@fe02.lga...
> Have my alarm set and ready to go at a 10AM
> meeting. I am excited. I really am. When i quit
> before i actually looked forward to meetings.
> Just don't wanna get up so early Oh well that
> will be a small price to pay for such a great
> gift, the gift being sobriety.
>
> And yes 10 AM is early i leave for work at 1:30
> get home about 2:30 in the morning. Nothing a cup
> of coffee can't take care of.
>
> Fucking right, quit smoking 75 days ago, now
> drinking. Drinking will take much more work and
> effort. Time to get the Big Book out and start
> reading again. Time to read my 24 hours a day
> book daily. Time to get in the sobriety zone and
> live a more fulfilling life. Time to stop being
> selfish spend more time with my family and
> nondrinking friends. Hard part is i have plenty
> of friends who are alcoholics and from past
> experience i can't really be around cause like me,
> everything is planned around drinking. Can't be
> around that shit.
>
> Got in plenty of trouble drinking, legal, job
> loss, etc. etc. list goes on. Back on my feet
> again ok job, time to get some sobriety under my
> belt and change my life around.
>
> And no i am not a fallen down drunk, drink a fifth
> a day, etc. etc. I drink anywhere from 1 to 20
> beers. Still healthy, etc. etc. BUT, i feel
> alcohol has taken alot from me emotionally and
> drained people close to me emotionally. And i am
> definitely an alcoholic, i've been out of denial
> after about my third and final drunk driving so i
> got that taken care of. Know the principles of
> AA. Went to AA, but I did it for show, to look
> good for court, and i didn't work on the steps
> good enough. I liked going and it helped my
> sobriety but i didn't work on it hard enough.
>
> This time will be different. NO MORE.

I hope it works out.

Darren

Bryan wrote:
> Have my alarm set and ready to go at a 10AM meeting. I am excited. I
> really am. When i quit before i actually looked forward to meetings.
>
> Hard part is i have plenty of friends who are alcoholics and from past
> experience i can't really be around cause like me, everything is planned
> around drinking. Can't be around that shit.

You preparing yourself well. I've stayed away from obvious bad
situations where alcohol is freely available for awhile. You CAN
completely avoid it all together. During Christmas, I drove to parties
and when things got at all stressful or weird feeling I left.
I feel Ok to be around people NOW who still drink, but know I don't.

>
> Got in plenty of trouble drinking, legal, job loss, etc. etc. list goes
> on. Back on my feet again ok job, time to get some sobriety under my
> belt and change my life around.
>
Yup. It took awhile for me to get in really big trouble.
Actually it was a relief to get it over with. I was going to
AA and it was getting worse.

> And no i am not a fallen down drunk, drink a fifth a day, etc. etc.

I was ending up just a sick drunk. mentally and phyically ill. Yet I
couldn't stop. No energy for anything except throwing up in the mornings.

> i am definitely an alcoholic, i've been out of
> denial after about my third and final drunk driving so i got that taken
> care of. Know the principles of AA. Went to AA, but I did it for show,
> to look good for court, and i didn't work on the steps good enough. I
> liked going and it helped my sobriety but i didn't work on it hard enough.
>

For most, hitting a precieved bottom is the only way to really
turn around. Surrender. It really is a relief.

> This time will be different. NO MORE.

Check in daily.

My morning pray: God. Please set aside everything I think
I know about myself and my illness and give me clear
direction so that I may experience something new TODAY.

"Bryan" <bekberg@charter.net> wrote in message
news:f8YLe.33712$_41.26132@fe02.lga...
> Have my alarm set and ready to go at a 10AM
> meeting. I am excited. I really am. When i quit
> before i actually looked forward to meetings.
> Just don't wanna get up so early Oh well that
> will be a small price to pay for such a great
> gift, the gift being sobriety.
>
> And yes 10 AM is early i leave for work at 1:30
> get home about 2:30 in the morning. Nothing a cup
> of coffee can't take care of.
>
> Fucking right, quit smoking 75 days ago, now
> drinking. Drinking will take much more work and
> effort. Time to get the Big Book out and start
> reading again. Time to read my 24 hours a day
> book daily. Time to get in the sobriety zone and
> live a more fulfilling life. Time to stop being
> selfish spend more time with my family and
> nondrinking friends. Hard part is i have plenty
> of friends who are alcoholics and from past
> experience i can't really be around cause like me,
> everything is planned around drinking. Can't be
> around that shit.
>
> Got in plenty of trouble drinking, legal, job
> loss, etc. etc. list goes on. Back on my feet
> again ok job, time to get some sobriety under my
> belt and change my life around.
>
> And no i am not a fallen down drunk, drink a fifth
> a day, etc. etc. I drink anywhere from 1 to 20
> beers. Still healthy, etc. etc. BUT, i feel
> alcohol has taken alot from me emotionally and
> drained people close to me emotionally. And i am
> definitely an alcoholic, i've been out of denial
> after about my third and final drunk driving so i
> got that taken care of. Know the principles of
> AA. Went to AA, but I did it for show, to look
> good for court, and i didn't work on the steps
> good enough. I liked going and it helped my
> sobriety but i didn't work on it hard enough.
>
> This time will be different. NO MORE.

Bryan
Acceptance
Willingness
Action
Sounds like you know what to do and where to go (to any lengths). Hope to
meet you out on that Road.
Peace
John

I hope you hang in there. Just remember; Go to meetings, and don't use
no matter what!!!






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