On Sat, 21 Jun 2003 08:30:02 -0500, "rosie readandpost"
<readandpost@REMOVETHISyahoo.com> wrote:


>dan,
>my problem with this, is NOT KNOWING which drinking episode is going to be my last!
>i believe that alcoholism is a progressive disease, progressively getting WORSE!
>i remember as a newcomer hearing the expression:
>
>"i KNOW i can have another drunk, but will i have another RECOVERY?"
>
>once i got to AA, i understood that i was playing roulette with my life, each and every time i thought i could drink
>again.
>i am not willing to take that risk anymore.
>
>rosie
>

thanks for your thoughts Rosie, i know if I go back to drinking daily
the problem will continue to get worse. I know that each drink I have
after the first night digs me in deeper and deeper, becoming
progessively more difficult to stop.

But i find it difficult to belive that i'd never stop. If I do try
another drink it will very much be one night only - but, i dunno, what
am I saying? Thats not what has always happened in the past. Maybe I
am just kidding myself. But hey, im still sober today ;-)