Hello,
I started heavey drinking about 10 yrs ago. Went from weekends, to
beers during the week, to a fifth of rum or vodka in a day or two in about 5
years. I slowed when I got married and had kids but never went away. Lies
to my wife and friends just kept getting more and more frequent every month.
I went from finding the half full bottle under my seat on the way to work
and throwing it out the window, to getting the biggest bottle and letting it
last a few days, to knowing that if what ever size I got I would hit it
until it was gone or I was gone.
I didn't start till I was about 23, because my mother complained about
my dad who I saw make a drink before he went to work when I was 13. I knew
it could be a problem and now I know it is. In the last few weeks I've gone
a couple days without sleeping at all. That was after not drinking for two
days. My wife is done with me until I get back to who I was when I met her.
Over the last 3 years I've heard loose comments from friends about me
needing that next drink
Today I have 2 beers left in the fridge. Tomorrow I will have none. I
know tomorrow never comes, I've been through that. But that is when I will
try to hold on and try to be pushed in the right direction by the only
higher power that exists for me and hope that the exact opposite power will
not have enough strength to overcome it.

best wishes to you all, I'll check back


jes

On Thu, 30 Sep 2004 16:48:04 GMT, "jes" <jessesmith@verizon.net>
wrote:

>Hello,
> I started heavey drinking about 10 yrs ago. Went from weekends, to
>beers during the week, to a fifth of rum or vodka in a day or two in about 5
>years. I slowed when I got married and had kids but never went away. Lies
>to my wife and friends just kept getting more and more frequent every month.
>I went from finding the half full bottle under my seat on the way to work
>and throwing it out the window, to getting the biggest bottle and letting it
>last a few days, to knowing that if what ever size I got I would hit it
>until it was gone or I was gone.
> I didn't start till I was about 23, because my mother complained about
>my dad who I saw make a drink before he went to work when I was 13. I knew
>it could be a problem and now I know it is. In the last few weeks I've gone
>a couple days without sleeping at all. That was after not drinking for two
>days. My wife is done with me until I get back to who I was when I met her.
>Over the last 3 years I've heard loose comments from friends about me
>needing that next drink
> Today I have 2 beers left in the fridge. Tomorrow I will have none. I
>know tomorrow never comes, I've been through that. But that is when I will
>try to hold on and try to be pushed in the right direction by the only
>higher power that exists for me and hope that the exact opposite power will
>not have enough strength to overcome it.
>
>best wishes to you all, I'll check back
>
>
>jes
>
>
Hi Jes,
Why not check out my Yahoo group StrungOutnLuvnit. The link is here
on this newsgroup. We will welcome you with open arms and will not
coerce you or guilt you into recovery.

Donna Chilton Gray