> Recently, I arranged to ring this person one evening and
>during the afternoon of that day I sent them an email saying that I
>didn't feel like talking that evening on account of being in a very
>low mood and tearful on accounts of events that had happened during
>the day. Swiftly replying by email, my Sponsor told that my mood was
>good reason why we *should* speak :^))
>

I have this conversation with my sponsor often. It must be very frustrating
for her, however, I am just not *there* yet. I do not allow myself to get
upset over this. I walked into the halls of AA the day after my sobriety date
for the very first time in my life, and, unlike most, jumped in head first, and
that was a very long 3 1/2 months ago. Not really too long, when you think
about it. This is all *so* new to me, and I stuggle, still, with some of it.
It's a 180 degree turn. I embrace the program, yet, some things are still
difficult for me ... I still hold on to the notion I can do *some* things on my
own, or through the help of other options, such as this newgroup or another
online group I belong to. The important part here, is that I acknowledge this,
and work to improve this behavior. I have improved greatly over the months ...
just not quite *there*.

Me thinks I doth thinkest too much.