welcome back...........................sounds like you have a great
start on your new sobriety.
take life and its changes slowly, lots of meetings, and hang with
sober folks!

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read and post daily, it works!
rosie

"Hell they won't lie to me/ Not on my own damn TV/ But how much is a
liar's word worth/ And whatever happened to peace on earth?"
.....................................Willie Nelson
REGIME CHANGE BEGINS AT HOME
****VOTE****



"Xanadu" <xanadu@inorbit.com> wrote in message
newsan.2004.01.04.21.30.50.400062@inorbit.com...
> Hey!
>
> First, sorry for the lack of posting the past month or so, I'm
about to
> get into the "why" of it.
>
> As I think I posted a couple times back in teh fall, I had fallen
back
> into the bottle for a while after drying out for a (short) while
over teh
> summer. I can honestly say that I had learned nothing for the
tools that
> where available to me (AA, a very short stint in a detox, here,
etc.). On
> Friday, I came home after being in a full-blown rehab for a month.
I've
> got (only) 33 days sober now, but I've realized the two major
things that
> (I think) fueled my awakening up after a few more months of 24/7
drinking
> again:
>
> 1) I wasn't really using the tools available - I wasn't regular at
all
> with meetings, facing my issues, etc.
>
> 2) *I* didn't change - the *only* thing that changed was I wasn't
sitting
> around with a bottle in my hand anymore. I didn't change my head
or
> life any. That's the biggest part of the puzzle.
>
>
> I haven't had any unbearable cravings thus far, but I've only been
home a
> couple days now, so we'll see what the future brings to me. I'm
going to
> a local community college on Tuesday and Wednesday to take some
entrance
> exams to try and get my stagnant mind back in school to get it
going again
> and to help get a job that I actually enjoy doing as opposed to
one that
> I'm just good at doing (I've been a Network Administrator for 8 or
9 years
> now). I'm honestly not exactly sure what it is I want to do, but,
I need
> to start somewhere and going back to school to help get my head
working
> again is a start in my eyes. I'm 30 now so a lot of the stuff on
the
> tests I'm sure I won't do all that great at, but we'll see.
>
> Anyway, I just wanted to say HI again, and to just quick mention
where I'm
> at these days.
>
> P.S.
> I don't know how responsive I'll still be in posting or replying
and what
> not. I'm trying not to spend as much time in front of my machines
as I
> was while I was just sitting around drinking all the damn time...
>
>
>