hey there,
congratulations you're back :-)
I think mistakes 1) and 2) are common, I did them both prolly a number of
times until I surrendered around 9 months ago. I've changed alot since then,
just thinking about the past year over xmas. I do go to meetings alot. Funny
you're an IT guy, alcoholism doesn't seem to be uncommon in our line of
work, I know a few IT types I've met in recovery
think xmas 2004 and how you want to look back on this year, stay focused
even if/when it hurts, one day at a time of course. Make some sober friends
craig
"Xanadu" <xanadu@inorbit.com> wrote in message
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> Hey!
>
> First, sorry for the lack of posting the past month or so, I'm about to
> get into the "why" of it.
>
> As I think I posted a couple times back in teh fall, I had fallen back
> into the bottle for a while after drying out for a (short) while over teh
> summer. I can honestly say that I had learned nothing for the tools that
> where available to me (AA, a very short stint in a detox, here, etc.). On
> Friday, I came home after being in a full-blown rehab for a month. I've
> got (only) 33 days sober now, but I've realized the two major things that
> (I think) fueled my awakening up after a few more months of 24/7 drinking
> again:
>
> 1) I wasn't really using the tools available - I wasn't regular at all
> with meetings, facing my issues, etc.
>
> 2) *I* didn't change - the *only* thing that changed was I wasn't sitting
> around with a bottle in my hand anymore. I didn't change my head or
> life any. That's the biggest part of the puzzle.
>
>
> I haven't had any unbearable cravings thus far, but I've only been home a
> couple days now, so we'll see what the future brings to me. I'm going to
> a local community college on Tuesday and Wednesday to take some entrance
> exams to try and get my stagnant mind back in school to get it going again
> and to help get a job that I actually enjoy doing as opposed to one that
> I'm just good at doing (I've been a Network Administrator for 8 or 9 years
> now). I'm honestly not exactly sure what it is I want to do, but, I need
> to start somewhere and going back to school to help get my head working
> again is a start in my eyes. I'm 30 now so a lot of the stuff on the
> tests I'm sure I won't do all that great at, but we'll see.
>
> Anyway, I just wanted to say HI again, and to just quick mention where I'm
> at these days.
>
> P.S.
> I don't know how responsive I'll still be in posting or replying and what
> not. I'm trying not to spend as much time in front of my machines as I
> was while I was just sitting around drinking all the damn time...
>
>
>