"Tomas" <tvoncarlshausen@gmail.com> wrote in message
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> In the past 6 weeks I have had 3 scripts for 40 5mg Diazepam, for an 8
> day detox. Ok its been fine for 3 days, taking 70mg a day, then pills
> run out, I start shaking again, so back drinking again, get so ill and
> depressed from drinking, take another script etc etc.... I am
> doubtful if my doc will prescribe me anymore diazepam anymore, and I
> just fear living and shutting my eyes without either, but I know I
> have to stop drinking. I guess I'm just using diazepam as solid
> alcohol. I have been clean for 9 months previously using the rooms
> of AA but feel so ashamed to go back,

Ashamed? Don't be. AA is full of people who have had relapses. They'll
understand and now so will you. You've relapsed. Now you know what it's
like. Get back on the wagon and be better for the experience.

>I know I have to, and I really
> think I'm prepared to surrender this time, but first I need to put the
> cork in the bottle and dont know how to detox.... would librium be
> better, and maybe some strong sedative to help me sleep??? The
> problem with diazepam is it just makes me feel a bit high and starts
> off the whole cycle again... Just any hints on getting a week sober
> and clean would be appreciated... TIA
The golden oldies. Keeep yourself busy. avoid being alone. Remember the
cardinal sins, hunger, anger, thirst, boredom, tiredness and lonelyness.
avoid them and your will do better. Ask yourself and your doctor if you
really need happy pills.

HTH
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