I went to my Dr. I have had General anxiety since 13. I can not be
around more then 3-4 people at once unless I know them. (Mom Dad Brother
close friends. I hide. I started drinking at 15-16 and i felt great. Of
course this just numbed me. I took librium (librax) it worked for many
years at 10 mgs. Dr said that is a low dose. And it helped my stomach.
Time went on and I increased my alcohol to MD 20/20/ Everyday. Never
drank hard liquore. Sometimes beer 12 a day. Never drank in the morning
or after noon. Only from 7 pm until 11. This went on for 35 years. My
stomach was bad so I took prilosec, nexium (another coverup) I was
depressed alot except at work where i enjoyed working. My BP went to
average of 155/98 cholesterol 266. I had a stress test and it was normal
excect a tiny heart murmur. Dr said just live your life. @-3 times I
stopped drink for 8 days and 20 day and 5 days. In over 30 years. I felt
more energy my somach did not bother me, I could walk in a store without
a panic. But I always went back at night to the alcohol. My sisters are
alcohhics. I tryed antabused. The dose was 250mg aday/ I took 500mg.
after 5 days a drank and the antabuse was like a sugar pill. Nothing
happened. I dont date because im afraid and nervouse. I have some
friends that are great and think Im great. I help people when they need
me. I have financial problem as work is slow. Now i feel like doing
nothing. I want to taper off each meds and alcohol. But I dont have
money or have a place to go as its far. I have a 2 bedroom home and once
had a friend live there for 2 days he said he could not stop drinking
and left, He mad it 2 days as I did. Any Ideas? In scared to death of
groups like AA... I beleive in it buut I cant. Is there a place to go
and get clean? My neighbor said she would pay for it. Is it better to
taper of alcohol first and then xanax or both equally. I tryes cold
turkey and got heart palputations. Well Thank you for listening to me.
Thank you. Dan