Montgomery BOO...URNS wrote:
> Hello people:
>
> Over the course of this weekend, I went through a lot of soul searching.
> I'm a person who wouldn't consider himself an alcoholic, but then again most
> alcoholics don't consider to be one either. I have had problems in the past
> due to alcoholism and they included getting caught up in the law
> (specifically DUI). I drink a lot, but I usually don't drink during the
> week just because I like to keep a level head through the week when I'm
> working my day job.
>
> It's only tonight that I have been scaring myself just because in the last
> year I have been working towards bettering my livelihood. I want to make
> something of myself and I want to succeed at running my own business. I
> don't want to be working for someone else for the rest of my life, and more
> than that I feel that the pathway to this success could be crushed in an
> instant if I keep drinking.
>
> I have tried to stop several times in the last two years. I would go for a
> couple of weeks and then start again. Normally I don't drink during the
> week but I have found myself drinking once here and there and now I feel in
> order to focus on my goals in life, I should keep it out of my life
> completely.
>
> I need help, and I need support. I am considering AA, but I'm also turning
> to the internet so that I might find people who feel the same way I do,
> maybe some people who could put my mind at ease and keep me from scaring
> myself.
>
> There's different reasons why I'm scared. One is that I feel that something
> is going to happen to me again where I could end up getting caught up in the
> law, get charged with DUI, and I end up without a license, without a car,
> what's worse is I could end up hurting someone or even (the scariest of all)
> killing someone. What happens if I don't have a car? I'm out of an aspect
> that will help me focus on my goals. I've been down this road before, and
> if I go down it again... I'm without a car for 5 years. I can't afford
> that! Now, maybe that sounds a little selfish but if I keep drinking what's
> next? My house? My job? My dreams? My livelihood?
>
> The other reason I'm scared might have to do with what friends and even
> family might think of me. I feel that I don't want to announce to anyone
> that I want to quit drinking or that I have quit drinking because from when
> I've tried to quit in the past I get everyone concerned about if I've done
> something wrong or if I'm in trouble (these concerns usually extend from my
> family) or my friends (who some are not friends anymore) saying that I've
> made the wrong decision. Everyone in my family drinks and I believe this
> has a lot to do with why I slip back into drinking after I quit for a while.
>
> Another serious reason for me being scared is that I have slowly contracted
> several health problems in that last several years. Everything from asthma,
> to stomach and digestion problems, muscle stiffness, cramps, and even heart
> problems. All of which I have been to the doctor to get medicine for these
> ailments but I feel I could do much better tending to my health if I stop
> drinking all together.
>
> I want to know that I'm taking the right path and I feel that I would be. I
> just know it's going to be hard, not only emotionally but socially as well.
> I'll lose some drinking buddies but then again I could end up being the
> friendly neighborhood designated driver for those who feel they're incapable
> of driving themselves home. There's many pros as well as cons for my
> decision and I know that it's going to be a hard decision but I want to
> chase my dreams and I feel that drinking and alcohol is just going to get in
> my way.
>
> I don't want to be scared anymore. I want to feel alive and I feel by
> posting this message, I'm taking the first step towards a better life. I
> would hope to get some positive feedback upon posting this message.
>
> Thanks and may everyone's dreams come true.
>
> DC
>
>
whether you are alcoholic or not, i highly suggest
going to a real life AA meeting. Go to a few see
how they go. I think of myself as alcoholic in
that i have gotten dui trouble and other troubles,
and for the most part i only was a weekend
drinker. For each their own you have to make that
decision yourself. I highly suggest going to a
real life meeting. It really helps. I am only 2
weeks in my sobriety and that's about the best
advice i can give, and listen to what others got
to say, whether it's here or in a meeting. Good
luck to you.. Plus meetings will give you tools to
stay sober, just my opinion, and alot of others
opinions.

Bryan