"Bryan" <bekberg@charter.net> wrote in message
news:f8YLe.33712$_41.26132@fe02.lga...
> Have my alarm set and ready to go at a 10AM
> meeting. I am excited. I really am. When i quit
> before i actually looked forward to meetings.
> Just don't wanna get up so early Oh well that
> will be a small price to pay for such a great
> gift, the gift being sobriety.
>
> And yes 10 AM is early i leave for work at 1:30
> get home about 2:30 in the morning. Nothing a cup
> of coffee can't take care of.
>
> Fucking right, quit smoking 75 days ago, now
> drinking. Drinking will take much more work and
> effort. Time to get the Big Book out and start
> reading again. Time to read my 24 hours a day
> book daily. Time to get in the sobriety zone and
> live a more fulfilling life. Time to stop being
> selfish spend more time with my family and
> nondrinking friends. Hard part is i have plenty
> of friends who are alcoholics and from past
> experience i can't really be around cause like me,
> everything is planned around drinking. Can't be
> around that shit.
>
> Got in plenty of trouble drinking, legal, job
> loss, etc. etc. list goes on. Back on my feet
> again ok job, time to get some sobriety under my
> belt and change my life around.
>
> And no i am not a fallen down drunk, drink a fifth
> a day, etc. etc. I drink anywhere from 1 to 20
> beers. Still healthy, etc. etc. BUT, i feel
> alcohol has taken alot from me emotionally and
> drained people close to me emotionally. And i am
> definitely an alcoholic, i've been out of denial
> after about my third and final drunk driving so i
> got that taken care of. Know the principles of
> AA. Went to AA, but I did it for show, to look
> good for court, and i didn't work on the steps
> good enough. I liked going and it helped my
> sobriety but i didn't work on it hard enough.
>
> This time will be different. NO MORE.

I hope it works out.

Darren