Have my alarm set and ready to go at a 10AM
meeting. I am excited. I really am. When i quit
before i actually looked forward to meetings.
Just don't wanna get up so early Oh well that
will be a small price to pay for such a great
gift, the gift being sobriety.

And yes 10 AM is early i leave for work at 1:30
get home about 2:30 in the morning. Nothing a cup
of coffee can't take care of.

Fucking right, quit smoking 75 days ago, now
drinking. Drinking will take much more work and
effort. Time to get the Big Book out and start
reading again. Time to read my 24 hours a day
book daily. Time to get in the sobriety zone and
live a more fulfilling life. Time to stop being
selfish spend more time with my family and
nondrinking friends. Hard part is i have plenty
of friends who are alcoholics and from past
experience i can't really be around cause like me,
everything is planned around drinking. Can't be
around that shit.

Got in plenty of trouble drinking, legal, job
loss, etc. etc. list goes on. Back on my feet
again ok job, time to get some sobriety under my
belt and change my life around.

And no i am not a fallen down drunk, drink a fifth
a day, etc. etc. I drink anywhere from 1 to 20
beers. Still healthy, etc. etc. BUT, i feel
alcohol has taken alot from me emotionally and
drained people close to me emotionally. And i am
definitely an alcoholic, i've been out of denial
after about my third and final drunk driving so i
got that taken care of. Know the principles of
AA. Went to AA, but I did it for show, to look
good for court, and i didn't work on the steps
good enough. I liked going and it helped my
sobriety but i didn't work on it hard enough.

This time will be different. NO MORE.