"Ken Ragge" <ken@nospam.com> wrote in message
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> The Glass Prison wrote:
>> I may take you up on that Ken. I briefly looked at "morerevealed" and
>> perhaps I may tell my stories. They involve my life nearly taken twice
>> at both Betty Ford and Hazelden after being drug-free for over two
>> weeks each time. These things shouldn't happen at what they call "a
>> safe place". It makes me shudder and cry when I think about it. I still
>> have my written diaries and witnesses and it makes a good story. I'll
>> try if I can (always wanted to), but sometimes it's better to put the
>> past behind you.
>>
>> Of course, I am angry at myself and not because I made poor decisions
>> that got me to treatment. What happened to me there was not my fault.
>> It's like someone being admitted to a hospital for a drug overdose and
>> the next day, they slip on a mopped wet floor and break their leg. Who
>> is to blame for this? The fine upstanding hospital or the low-life
>> junkie just for being there? I know who society and certainly the
>> state, judge, jury, and insurance companies would choose.
>>
>> I still have ongoing issues and who better to let my anger out at than
>> the individuals who nearly took my life twice, and then tried to "blow
>> it off" with a fairy tale (the 12-step program). They were the people
>> (and places) that I trusted in, wanted to love and believe in. But
>> tragedy struck, twice, and I saw everything was disguised.
>>
>> Thanks for your understanding response.
>>
>> PS> I am a raised Roman Catholic, driven by fear and guilt. Need I say
>> more?
>>
>
> Being angry can be a tremendous resource to do the things you need to do.

Sure, and a whole pile of other shit he don't need to do...


Good luck with it.

25 to life...
>
> I think another important thing is to try to see that such things don't
> happen to others.
>
> Ken
> http://www.morerevealed.com
>
> PS> Unfortunately, being raised a Roman Catholic isn't the only way to end
> up driven by guilt and fear. I was raised Protestant, and I'd hate to
> leave out my Jewish friends.