"The Glass Prison" <glassprison51@yahoo.com> wrote in message
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>I may take you up on that Ken. I briefly looked at "morerevealed" and
> perhaps I may tell my stories. They involve my life nearly taken twice
> at both Betty Ford and Hazelden after being drug-free for over two
> weeks each time. These things shouldn't happen at what they call "a
> safe place". It makes me shudder and cry when I think about it. I still
> have my written diaries and witnesses and it makes a good story. I'll
> try if I can (always wanted to), but sometimes it's better to put the
> past behind you.
>
> Of course, I am angry at myself and not because I made poor decisions
> that got me to treatment. What happened to me there was not my fault.
> It's like someone being admitted to a hospital for a drug overdose and
> the next day, they slip on a mopped wet floor and break their leg. Who
> is to blame for this? The fine upstanding hospital or the low-life
> junkie just for being there? I know who society and certainly the
> state, judge, jury, and insurance companies would choose.
>
> I still have ongoing issues and who better to let my anger out at than
> the individuals who nearly took my life twice, and then tried to "blow
> it off" with a fairy tale (the 12-step program). They were the people
> (and places) that I trusted in, wanted to love and believe in. But
> tragedy struck, twice, and I saw everything was disguised.
>
> Thanks for your understanding response.
>
> PS> I am a raised Roman Catholic, driven by fear and guilt. Need I say
> more?

Sure, sounds like you are still living with a painful past, ie still unwell.
Best of luck in your future...