I may take you up on that Ken. I briefly looked at "morerevealed" and
perhaps I may tell my stories. They involve my life nearly taken twice
at both Betty Ford and Hazelden after being drug-free for over two
weeks each time. These things shouldn't happen at what they call "a
safe place". It makes me shudder and cry when I think about it. I still
have my written diaries and witnesses and it makes a good story. I'll
try if I can (always wanted to), but sometimes it's better to put the
past behind you.

Of course, I am angry at myself and not because I made poor decisions
that got me to treatment. What happened to me there was not my fault.
It's like someone being admitted to a hospital for a drug overdose and
the next day, they slip on a mopped wet floor and break their leg. Who
is to blame for this? The fine upstanding hospital or the low-life
junkie just for being there? I know who society and certainly the
state, judge, jury, and insurance companies would choose.

I still have ongoing issues and who better to let my anger out at than
the individuals who nearly took my life twice, and then tried to "blow
it off" with a fairy tale (the 12-step program). They were the people
(and places) that I trusted in, wanted to love and believe in. But
tragedy struck, twice, and I saw everything was disguised.

Thanks for your understanding response.

PS> I am a raised Roman Catholic, driven by fear and guilt. Need I say
more?