You sound very similar to me, if it wasn't one type of abuse it was another,
you will carry on replacing one form of abuse with yet another one until you
address reality, or what to most people is normality. I know normaility is
dreary and oftern tiresomely boring, but we must have an inbuilt coping
mechanism for it, you and I just haven't found ours yet.
"Bebop" <bjpowell@jeffnet.org> wrote in message
news:vfjhiqesiq6889@corp.supernews.com...
> Hello everyone,
>
> I have been cruising all these alt.recovery groups trying to get a feel
for
> the best one. In all my vast (not!) newsgroup experience, this one seems
> it.
>
> I have an alcoholic mom and dad. They have been divorced for 30 plus
years.
> I never had traumatic experiences as a child, I just grew up thinking that
> alcohol was the way to have fun. Of course, in my 20's and early 30's it
> got way out of hand. I decided to quit and went into intensive outpatient
> counseling when I was 26. That was very helpful, even though it was hard
to
> leave behind my friends and haunts. I was living on the East Coast at
the
> time but decided to move back home to Oregon. Oops, back to my old
friends
> and habits. I went back to drinking until I was 33. Finally after having
a
> child, who was then 2.5, I realized that being a parent and drinking like
I
> had (binge drinker) did not go well together. Being waken up in the
middle
> of the night by a scared, hungry or wet child sucked when you were drunk
and
> had only just gone to bed yourself!!
>
> So, I had a really good drunk one night and was so disgusted that I quit
> drinking and smoking cigs that day, cold turkey. That was five years ago.
>
> This is my problem now. I am a total pot head. I am a full-time
> stay-at-home mom and my bosses are now 6 and 3 years old. I smoke all
day,
> every day, starting at about 8am. I love it, but I HATE it. I use to be
> able to go several months between bags but not now. Today I just ran out
> again.
>
> This is where I need *your* support. Here is my list of reasons to quit:
I
> could be jepardizing my children's safety (not like when drinking!), I
don't
> get things done that require interacting with other people, I eat anything
> and everything (amazing I'm not heavier), I find excuses not to work out,
I
> avoid my neighbors sometimes, I don't really listen to the kids (it's hard
> to pay attention to rambling anyway) and sometimes don't even answer them,
I
> stay inside too much, I get dizzy and sometimes headaches, Sometimes I
give
> the kids the stupidest anwers to their questions leaving them going
"HUH?",
> I can't remember anything for more than 10 seconds it seems, my attention
> span for anything besides art is short, I forget what I was just talking
> about, I tend to stay up later and don't get enough sleep, and I don't
spend
> enough time with my wonderful husband at night.
>
> So, I have mustered up what I need to hopefully get through today but I
know
> it will be so helpful to have someone, another mom would be awesome, to
talk
> to.
>
> Sincerely, Beth
>
>